because rumors spread like wildfire
POSTED AT 05:04 AM

sinagtala

Yesterday had been sore. Really sore. I was the deep-fried egg they had for breakfast. The barenaked fish they savaged. Punyeta ang pinaka-ayaw ko sa lahat yung pinag-uusapan ako nang hindi ako kaharap. Little minds talk about other people; brilliant minds talk about ideas. They are, therefore, lame-ass scumbags either with little minds or no-nothing at all. Pero putangina pa din talaga. Grr. I can't farking help it. I wish I just wasn't able to hear the damnable conversation. It hurts me, as much as it sends me to fury, because these people are family. It would have been more helpful had they just confronted me about it, if they were really concerned.

Booyeah. Currently listening to: Aqualung- Strange and Beautiful

you are-
POSTED AT 06:23 AM

sinagtala

a zombie
stripped of a
mind of your
own
while

i
am the flash
of light
you
continuously avoid

shove
evade.

but maybe
just
may

be
in the event
you close your

eyes,

even for
a second-
i'd be
contained in
that blink

and be
enveloped in
those lids

til
i lose my
own mind
and
we are both
d
e
v
o
i
d

of meaning. Currently listening to: Death Cab for Cutie- Tiny Vessels

was
POSTED AT 07:04 AM

sinagtala

i cant seem to get this work. cant upload piktars from my digicam on this pc. gaaaaah. haven't done anything productive for the past i-don't-know days. and oh, doctor said i should stay away from paint, for the mean time. boohoo. but i was so bored last night and was itching to do some loving with my paint brushes and voila! i painted my shell pendant with something something.

today's plan was postponed. too bad. was supposed to go ukay-ukay shyapping somewhere in un. and then take some piktars in old manila. and then chill-out in some cafe hoping to finish reading The Fountainhead which my dad highly recommended. and then i was also supposed to go to tagaytay late in the afternoon with jess and papi. ah. such plans. good thing there's next week. and next next week. and the week after that. blah.

ex is getting married on i-don't-know-when. but soon. woohoo soon baby. it feels weird. but the weird feeling is good.

and did i say i feed on other people's misery?

Currently listening to: Glassjaw- Cosmopolitan Blood Loss

melt at the count of eight
POSTED AT 12:05 PM

sinagtala

...i dont know how you do it- making me feel miserable by not doing anything at all. but maybe that's it. your not-doing-anything is killing me, because i want you to ask me how and why im practically screwing up my life. i want you to give me a call or an sms. i want you to suddenly show up at our gate even just to say hi. or bug me just so i know you still recognize my existence, even after those long years- those long years of not wanting you, of throwing up every bit of you...

[excerpt taken from last night's litany.]

Currently listening to: The Postal Service
Currently feeling: nos-tal-gic

ctrl+alt+deletes
POSTED AT 07:02 AM

sinagtala

I want my life back.

Yun na lang muna.

Currently listening to: Glassjaw
Currently feeling: Loser-ish.

dahil mahalimuyak ang amoy ng floorwax.
POSTED AT 07:40 AM

sinagtala

Dalawang araw na kong sumasama kay papigoose papuntang tagaytay. Panalo talaga ang road trips papuntang probinsya, basta kahit saan na papalayo dito sa laspag nang maynila. Ang sarap ng feeling- parang kang bebi na dinuduyan tas kinakantahan ng lullaby. Haha. Something to that extent.

Naglibot-libot ako sa UN nung isang araw at nakatyempo ng isang art gallery habang lumalaboy. Lakan Ilaw yung pangalan ng artist na nag-e-exhibit that time. Gusto ko talaga yung pangalang Lakan(dula), kaso ayaw ni foysi kase masyado daw.. yun. Anyway, maganda yung mga paintings niya. Puros images ng tao. Iba't ibang klase ng mukha. E weakness ko yun kaya samba. Flat kase ang kinalalabasan ng mga pinipinta kong human figures. O-lats. Ang galing nung kay Lakan Ilaw. Basta. Tinatamad akong magdescribe.

Mag-m-movie marathon kame ni foysilog sa sabado dito sa bahay. Yeheyy. Sana umulan para cute  Ay ay. Nood pala kayo ng 1st Philippine Independent Film Festival sa CCP from July12-17. Saka ko na popost yung details kase basta.

Currently listening to: walang sawang Glassjaw

Zombie
POSTED AT 07:51 AM

sinagtala

You've reached your end once you've become

 

 

oh-so-fucking predictable.