naliligo sa isang primordial soup
POSTED AT 03:27 PM

sinagtala

gumising ng maaga, pilit na bumangon, nakapikit na naligo.

listahan ng mga aktibidades ko kahapon:
1. nagpaturo ng maderpaking acctg dahil konti na lang, mahuhulog na ko sa bangin.

2. pumuntang st. scho para sa plenaryo (we are no longer sniveling infants without a name, at last.)

3. pumuntang greenbelt para sa bday celeb ni dens. had dinner and a few good laughs as well. ansaya neto

4. dumeretso sa bahay ng hs friend para sa bday celeb din. honestly, i did not really want to go there, but then i had to play politics. dapat talaga nagpunta na lang ako sa gig nila jary sa cavite e.

may mga tao talagang napaka-judgmental. mga sobra makapanlait. mga makikitid ang utak. and they never change. minsan naiisip ko, defense mechanism lang siguro nila yon para itago ang insecurities nila. the hell.

tablan ka sana ng hiya
labis na na ang iyong
pangungutya
gayong kung titingin ka naman
sa salamin,
ang mukha mo man
ay may uling din.





. Currently listening to: SPIT YOU OUT ng MORTAL GRUDGE
Currently feeling: [o spite o hell]

musings of a dying faucet
POSTED AT 04:17 PM

sinagtala

doing something forbidden or something that is just simply unacceptable for some can, at times, be liberating.

. Currently listening to: DANCE ng BARBIE'S CRADLE

the #912 boomerangs
POSTED AT 05:36 PM

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i am not your property, and never will i allow myself to be. i am no slave; you are no master. you probably see me as a diffident dog with a collar that screams *YOURS.* i, on the other hand, see you as a loathsome vulture in search of his prey. you are cunning, but whatever it is that you do, i will never succumb. never will i succumb.



. Currently listening to: STINKFIST ng TOOL

roundtrip sa mrt.
POSTED AT 04:38 AM

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c [him]era
(k i m e r a)

as if the full moon
amidst the sky thick with stars
was not enough

something magical
was happening down here as well.

beside me was
a constellation,
the most beautiful i have ever seen.

maybe the gods
decided to have a break
and take a peek of the sunset

from this point of view.

you must be one
of those gods
on AWOL.

a constellation of some sort,
you were pulling me
towards heaven.

suddenly, as our hands
intertwined,
i felt as if you were
gravity.

i was too weak to resist.
and so, i submitted
to your
gravitational pull.

heaven was no longer
just a word.

[para ke hardcore jarfs.]

. Currently listening to: CAMPFIRE KANSAS ng GET-UP KIDS

of sea shells and printers
POSTED AT 02:13 PM

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akala ko, hindi na matatapos ang araw na `to. sobraaang daming projects kase ang hinahabol namin. cramming at its finest talaga. merong shooting sa buslaw, may final paper pa sa elemsta. at pag minamalas ka nga naman, kung kelan kinakailangan ang powers mo, saka ka magkakasakit. wawers. sa awa Niya, mission accomplished naman kame, slight. yung isa kase may sablay, pero ayus lang, nagawan naman ng paraan.

kinita ko sila petchai ng butong pakwan at connie (da dancer. haha ) sa mega matapos ang pressure-packed school chenes ko hanggang hapon. bonding kame. wehe. saya-saya-saya. nagpunta kaming art exhibit at napakain ng libre ng hindi oras. doon kame nagkwentuhan to da mak- tungkol sa kung anu-anong ka-ethnic-an, witch craft, past life, etc., etc. basta masaya

napabili pa ng tambol si connie. wawers. gusto ko din sana, pero, wala lang. may araw din sakin yon.

pauwi, gusto ko sana dumaan ng kapehan at magpalipas-oras mag-isa, kaso dinala na ko ng aking mga paa pauwi eh. tas gusto ko din sana mag-pinta, kaso nakay jary yung mga gamit ko.

speaking of, miss ko na yung hardcore na yun. haha

haaaay.

the happier you are, the less complicated your life seems to be.

. Currently listening to: KNOWING THERE IS ONLY NOW ni CYNTHIA ALEXANDER
Currently feeling: itchy to paint the sky

one regular delirium with onions, to-go.
POSTED AT 06:14 AM

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this week had been hell. no, wait. hell might even be an understatement.

next week is another different story. of course, i am sure it would still be on the context of hell. yes, more sleepless nights working my ass off studying for the final exams that i'd be very much looking forward to.

the taste of sembreak is already on the tip of my toungue. enticing. only a few more hundred hours and i'd be able to liberate myself once again from all these chains.



[i'd be watching hamlet, a rock musical on the 28th of august. it would sure be a great ender for one exasperating week.]


. Currently listening to: SUFFER IN TRUTH ng MESHUGGAH

even the skies sing.
POSTED AT 10:18 AM

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in this room is a burried monologue
the walls are
screaming
secrets burried
from within,
kept for years
by a lunatic
who had always
lived
in a reverie.
in a
reverie
he called
life.


. Currently listening to: JEEPNEY ng SPONGECOLA

A spoonful of dirt and fire
POSTED AT 02:22 PM

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hai-atus. one more exam to go. inip na kong magbakasyon, lalo pa't medyo napalaban ata tong mga mata ko sa puyatan these past few weeks, at medyo nagamit ata ng onte ang naghi-hibernate na brain cells ko. inip na sabik. yon. tipong, gustong-gusto mo nang kumain dahil feeling mo mamamatay ka na sa gutom. tipong, gustong-gusto mo nang tumayo dahil feeling mo forever ka nang naka-upo. tipong, gustong-gusto mo nang tumakas dahil 107 years ka nang nakakulong. yon. ganon ang pagka-gusto ko na magbakasyon na. haaaay. nalaspag ata ang utak at mga mata ko e. nalaspag ng paulit-ulit (nalaspag ng paulit-ulit?). wacheber.

i need to get back to my senses, fast. else, i'll go back to being this dead beat old sulky self once again.




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